Ever since I was a little girl I tought I wanted to do cartoons when I grew up, I didn't tell anybody because they would say "but you are so smart you should be a doctor" or something of the sort, they still did that when I said want I wanted to do in High School.

But the hobby I've always enjoyed more, and been more involved into have been videogames, I know a lot stuff about games and their creators and when they come out and stuff, so working in the gaming industry has always been another top option.

I've currently finished 4 semesters out of 10 in a career called "Multimedia Engineering" in a local university, and it involves stuff from programming to 3D animation, web development and stuff.

I know I shouldn't worry because I still have a lot of time before I finish school to decide which path I'll take, thing is, people always say that to have a job in some good enterprise you need to especialize on something, I have looked for example at Riot Games' job applications and I wouldn't know which to choose. Some people say to start your own bussiness but I would like to work somewhere else and learn how it is done.

Well, I haven't explained the real problem yet, I'm stuck between the two sides of my brain, to say it some way:

-I love art, I mean, doing art, I love drawing and animating, and making up stories and stuff, but I know I'm not that good at art, I wouldn't be very confident in showing my art to people, to people who actually know about art.

-I've always been best at math, and logic and stuff, so programming is kind of easy for me, I do like programming, it's fun, and it's a better paid job they say, but I need to have like a homework or something to actually do it, I don't program for fun like I draw, I get tired of it after a while contrary to art.

So I really don't know which path should I focus in, what I'm good at best or what I like better, I know I still have time and life will probably just show me the way. But I wonder if there is some job spot that integrates both?

People always say that those who have top grades aren't the ones who make it good at life, I've always had top grades so I've always said that's the excuse of mediocre people, but in the bottom it kind of scares me you know?
A guy who has some videogame studio in Guadalajara told us at a conference that they don't want people who say they do everything, they want specialists, I know this is the way big studios work as well, but what if you don't say you do everything because you are a show off but basically because you are good and like both things and just really want a job?

I guess the perfect job for me, what I would really like, is being a game designer or who says what the cartoon is about and stuff, just designing everything and telling other minions to do the actual art / programming. But I know I should start from the bottom. I am really ambicious though.

It's like looking for my freaking cutie mark lol.

I used to say I'd conquer the world someday, then little by little I just let that part of myself go, I am glad to find friend that still believe I will conquer the world someday. Maybe I will.

So have you ever had any problem of the sort? Or want to decide my destiny?